So it is 10 mins before Christmas Eve Eve and I just can’t go to sleep. Today I came home to my parent’s house and I’ll be staying here until after the New Year. During these last couple of hours when I should be sleeping because I know that my mom will want to go shopping again tomorrow. I can’t help but think about all the things that have changed in my life in the past few years and the upcoming changes that are going to be affecting my life in the years to come.
In the past few years it feels like I have been stuck in a rut, basically in the same place with nowhere to go. But for some reason with the current semester finally over and one more to go before graduation I feel like I am finally getting out of that rut. I really can’t believe how much has truly changed this year. My mom diagnosed with ovarian cancer, going through multiple surgeries and chemo, not to mention all of the emotion rollercoasters that went along with that. Being the medical reference in the family I had a lot of questions that I had to answer and many that I didn’t know the answers to. So far all scanners are clear so I am keeping positive on that. My dad, I have been the most worried about because while everything was going on with my mom, he was the only one at home to deal with it. And I don’t think that anyone ever asked him how he was feeling about all of it. But he held together like the man he is and got my mom threw it.
In the past few months my oldest sister go married, MARRIED can you believe it. It just seems so weird because for as long as I can remember it has been the three of us. Don’t get me wrong I love Jonathon and couldn’t ask for a better brother-in-law, but I just keep forgetting how truly grown up we are! Soon but not too soon there will be kids back in the household and honestly I can’t wait for that!! Because then I can spoil and play with them and then give them back to their mom and dad!
My other sister, middle one, seems to be growing up too! She is doing really great with her boyfriend and I wouldn’t be surprised if there was another wedding on the way in the next few years. Her company that she works for is booming and gaining lots of interest! I love being able to say that my sister designed that and show them her signature on the inside. We have not always had the best relationship but in the past year we are finally getting along like I have always hoped we would. I am so very proud of her and everything that she does!
I have finally made it to my last and final semester as a nursing student. I have met a wonderful man, I couldn’t ask for a better guy. He keeps me sane when I want to go crazy, calm when I am so very angry, and he rubs my feet without asking for a foot rub in return! (Mom says that’s a sign of a keeper). Along with all of that I have made great strides toward volunteering with Sexual Trauma, I never thought it would be something that I was interested in helping with but I am good at it and I help people so I’ll keep doing it.
My friends have had a bumpy ride as well. My best friend, Kayleigh had a wedding renewal with her husband. She has been balancing newly wedded life, school and work throughout this year. I know they’ve had a bumpy ride but I know they are on the right track and will make it through. My friend, Caroline has graduated and passed the NCLEX!!!! Along with struggling to find that perfect balance in her life, no matter what road she decides to take I will still be there to support her. My Friend, Garren has been trying to find herself throughout the past year. She moved back home and gave up on a failing relationship, it was the best and I know that she will survive and find herself. I can think of so many more friends that have grown and changed throughout this year, I can’t wait to see how this next year turns out.
The scariest part of this reflection is the things yet to come; Graduation, NCLEX, job hunting and moving. I will be taking a very big step in my life and while everyone around me says that I shouldn’t, I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do and that if I don’t at least try then I will always wonder what could’ve been. I don’t want to be sitting here next year this time reflecting on the year gone by and wonder if it could’ve been different. I have taken advantage of every opportunity that has come my way and I don’t intend to stop now! Look out 2010, Here I come!!! Happy Holidays everyone! I hope that you take the time to reflect on the year gone by!! Comments are welcome!!!!