To write a book????

I want to write a book that inspires while making people laugh.  My fiance just deployed and one of my friends said I had to read the book “Confessions of a Military Wife” by Mollie Gross.  Now I am only part of the way through the book but I am in LOVE!!! I can completely relate to the author in some very creepy ways; not only because of having some similar experiences but also we fell in love with our Marine for the same reasons.  So of course, immediately I am comfortable and interested in reading about what she has to say, because I want to know what I have to look forward to!  The best part of this book is that she makes everything so funny and the same things that she finds funny are the same things I giggle about, which make them hysterical!!!

So I guess in order to write a book that will inspire along with making people laugh, I need to make a book that will inspire me and make me laugh.  Now, what to write about????  I can’t do the military thing because I barely understand it myself, in fact I call myself a military illiterate!  Maybe I can write a book about trying to survive ……..  Well I guess you’ll have to wait and find out what I survive!!!  And hey if I don’t then maybe it can be a book about how not to survive!!  Wish me luck!!

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Thoughts of a Marine Girlfriend.

It’s the constant unknown,

When will he come home next,

Will I get to see him before he leaves,

When will I get to hold him and hug him and kiss him again.

 

What if something happens,

How can I be strong,

How can I not be strong,

Does he know how much I really love him.

 

I cry when it hurts,

And it hurts most of the time,

Except when we are together,

Those are the best times of my life.

 

When will he be safely home,

I wish I knew the unknowns,

I know he is my future,

I could never give this up.

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Speechless

Tonight I am struck speechless.  All the good things that have changed in my life in this recent small amount of time now seem inconsequential to the horrible news that I received tonight.  My heart is breaking because this shouldn’t happen and it seems so unfair.  Such a young life is going to be taken and there is nothing that anyone can do about it.  I know that it happens multiple times a day but this is probably the second time in my life that it is being brought to my attention.

A girl that was in my nursing class was diagnosed with a brain tumor a few years ago.  She made it through the crazy surgery and even crazier chemo.  She went back to school and graduated with her Bachelors of Science in Nursing.  She has just been informed that the tumor is back and growing more aggressive than before, so much so that it is not responding to treatment.  They have informed her, she has about 3 weeks to live.

She is only 23 years old, it seems so unfair, and she is still so young.  The wonderful and sad thing about this all is that she is so strong in her faith, she has accepted this and is not asking for goodbyes but instead wants I’ll see you’s .  She has honestly touched my life with her strength to fight and her unbending faith.   I can only hope that when the time comes for me, I have the same faith that she does.

Meghan,

I will never forget you and I will definitely be seeing you. There is always hope and I will be praying for you.

Ellie

I date a United States Marine!

Ok so.  I date a United States Marine!  I love him with all of my heart.  We have been in a long distance relationship for a year and a half now.  The other day I ran into an old friend and she wanted to know if I was dating anyone and so I told her about my boyfriend.  Her response was “oh my god why would you put yourself through that.”  It got me a little steamed up because I hear that or similar responses (for example, “well you must not really like your boyfriend if you don’t mind spending all that time apart”, “I could never be in a long distance relationship, do you think that he cheats on you?”)

First of all, I am in a long distance relationship because I love the man that I am with.  When people say I can imagine what it must be like, I’m sorry to say but no you can’t.  If you can imagine your heart not in your body but all the way across the country and you aren’t complete until you are near it, then you can understand a fraction of what it is like to in a long distance relationship.  Him being in the military only makes the relationship that much harder.  He can’t come and see you whenever he wants and he doesn’t get to decide where he is going to live. He has to ask for permission to come see you and it has to be approved (which they usually wait until the day before to approve) and he has to go where ever they tell him to.

Second of all, I love that man and while being apart from him kills me, the times that I do get to spend with him are some of the best times of my life.  I would give up the 2 months we have to be apart, if it meant that I got to spend 10 mins in his arms.  And it kills me when I hear someone compare the week that they had to spend apart from their boyfriend or husband as a way to try to relate to me.  I guarantee it is nowhere near the same thing.  Try spending 2 months, 4 months, 8 months, a year without getting to see the person you love.  In fact our love is stronger than most because we don’t see each other daily, we have to make the time to talk and share and be with each other.  We text, we call, we write, we Skype; we probably spend twice as much time making our relationship work than other couples.

Third of all, I have all the faith in my man and I never have to question his faithfulness to me.  So don’t ask, because if you are asking you’re probably doing so to purposely cause me stress.  And I have enough in my life right now!  Thank you!  I am and he is Semper Fidelis  – Always Faithful.

I love my Man!!  And I am proud that he is a Marine. It makes our relationship a little bit more difficult but in the end, the moments we do get to share are more precious.