I think I miss placed my Crystal Ball…

Things to do:

– Finish Papers and Projects

– Take Tests

– Find my Crystal Ball

– Pass Exit Exam

– Pass Finals

– Finish and Pass anything else the professors can throw at me

– Graduate

– Celebrate

– Study for the NCLEX

– Learn to use my crystal ball and see that everything will work out fine

– Take and Pass the NCLEX

– Get a job

– Find a House

– Move

– Have everything work out just fine!!

(- Somewhere in there, Grow up and become an adult that can make decisions)

Ok so I am getting into my last 2 months of college ever (well for a while anyway) and I am getting a little over whelmed. See I had this trip to Spain that I was doing over spring break and I thought that when I got back everything would be smooth sailing. Well, I was wrong! I have about 6 weeks to get everything done for graduation, then there’s all the stuff that got to happen after I graduate.

I just wonder how people transition from college life to grown up life without the stress. I’m making big changes in my life after I graduate like moving away from my friends and family to be closer to my boyfriend. This is really scary for me, however my boyfriend thinks it will be just fine. He is calm and cool about the whole thing, how I don’t know. I wish I could be cool and calm about it, but I need a plan.

I need a crystal ball so that I know the decisions I’m about to make will work out for the best, so that I can make a plan on how to get there. But I seem to have miss placed my crystal ball and I don’t think I will be able to find it anytime soon (maybe I’ll find it in the move, but that’s too late.) How do people do it? How do you make a decision and know that it’s the right one? Anyone have any advice????? HELP PLEASE!!!!!

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Listen to the Music!!

Have you ever really listened to the lyrics of a song or the notes in a symphony? Can hear the message and the passion that the writer is trying to put out there? I love to listen to all kinds of music from Chopin to Taylor Swift! Music can bring you up when you’re down or just accompany the mood that you are currently in and not ready to get out of. Music can help you get over your break up or bring together even the most unlikely group of people. When you’ve had a rough day you can crank up the music and dance around without a care of judgment from anyone. There are some songs that come out and you just think that about sums up you life at that moment in those 3 mins. About a year ago one of those songs came out for me. It is sung by a young artist but I don’t care and I show no shame when I talk about it, because the first time that I heard it and listened to the lyrics I cried because I felt like someone actually saw my life. I just want to share those lyrics with you because I am sure that everyone can relate to this song I highly recommend looking it up and giving it a listen.

The Climb lyrics Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J

I can almost see it That dream I am dreaming But there’s a voice inside my head saying “You’ll never reach it” Every step I’m taking Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking But I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high There’s always gonna be another mountain I’m always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose Ain’t about how fast I get there Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side It’s the climb The struggles I’m facing The chances I’m taking Sometimes might knock me down But no, I’m not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I’m gonna remember most, yeah Just gotta keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on ‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain I’m always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose Ain’t about how fast I get there Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side It’s the climb, yeah! There’s always gonna be another mountain I’m always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an uphill battle Somebody’s gonna have to lose Ain’t about how fast I get there Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side It’s the climb, yeah! Keep on moving, keep climbing Keep the faith, baby It’s all about, it’s all about the climb Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Idiots Guide to Proposals!

Ok so this weekend I was out with my boyfriend’s friends and one of them is about to ask his girlfriend to marry him.  He was planning on asking at Christmas time in front of a lot of people, but apparently his girl friend happened to mention how cheesy that was.  Now he has no idea what to do and he asked me what I thought.  I am sure that there are a lot of guys out there that are about to ask there wonderful girlfriends to marry them and don’t know how to do it.  I hope that this will help you out.

Christmas and New Years are probably the cheesy way to ask a girl to marry you.  It’s uninventive, typical and not very romantic.  This is the person that we are hopefully going to spend the rest of our lives with.  The proposal will tell us how much effort you are planning on putting into the future relationship.  I’m not saying that it has to be large and extravagant, but it definitely should be memorable.  If you can remember a particularly romantic moment in your relationship and recreate it says that you remember the important things by remembering the little things too.  It says that you are creative and romantic and will be throughout the rest of your lives.

I like most girls are only planning on getting married ones and I know that I want to remember this one proposal for a lifetime.  I remember the weekend that my boyfriend first told me he loved me.  We were at the beach for the weekend, in the exact same room that we had the first time we came to the beach and we were standing out on the balcony when he told me he loved me.  Recreating that would be a memorable scene.  That same weekend one of those mornings we were out on the balcony and at the next hotel over someone had gotten up early and written Shelly will you marry me in the sand below I’m sure their room.  I would find that very romantic

Creating a memorable proposal doesn’t have to cost a lot of money.  Pick a favorite place that you both like to visit, recreate your very first date, or take her on a walk down memory lane.  If Christmas is a favorite moment in your relationship then yes it is acceptable to propose at Christmas.  It doesn’t have to be a long speech but it shouldn’t be too short either.  I want to know why you want to marry me.  I may already know that I want to do it, but I still want to know why you want to too.

Don’t by any means be offended by my blog about proposing, I am not engaged nor married currently, I am not a professional or an expert on proposals.  However, I am a girl that like many other girls thinks about the way that she would like to be proposed to.  You don’t have to take any of what I say to heart if you don’t want to.  It takes a lot of courage to ask someone to marry you and I respect that.  I know that like most things if there is something that I can’t get an idea for I search for it on the internet and maybe this will help a few guys get one girls perspective on proposals.

Looking Back at a Year Gone by!

So it is 10 mins before Christmas Eve Eve and I just can’t go to sleep.  Today I came home to my parent’s house and I’ll be staying here until after the New Year.  During these last couple of hours when I should be sleeping because I know that my mom will want to go shopping again tomorrow.  I can’t help but think about all the things that have changed in my life in the past few years and the upcoming changes that are going to be affecting my life in the years to come.

In the past few years it feels like I have been stuck in a rut, basically in the same place with nowhere to go.  But for some reason with the current semester finally over and one more to go before graduation I feel like I am finally getting out of that rut.  I really can’t believe how much has truly changed this year.  My mom diagnosed with ovarian cancer, going through multiple surgeries and chemo, not to mention all of the emotion rollercoasters that went along with that.  Being the medical reference in the family I had a lot of questions that I had to answer and many that I didn’t know the answers to.  So far all scanners are clear so I am keeping positive on that.  My dad, I have been the most worried about because while everything was going on with my mom, he was the only one at home to deal with it. And I don’t think that anyone ever asked him how he was feeling about all of it.  But he held together like the man he is and got my mom threw it.

In the past few months my oldest sister go married, MARRIED can you believe it.  It just seems so weird because for as long as I can remember it has been the three of us.  Don’t get me wrong I love Jonathon and couldn’t ask for a better brother-in-law, but I just keep forgetting how truly grown up we are!  Soon but not too soon there will be kids back in the household and honestly I can’t wait for that!!  Because then I can spoil and play with them and then give them back to their mom and dad!

My other sister, middle one, seems to be growing up too!  She is doing really great with her boyfriend and I wouldn’t be surprised if there was another wedding on the way in the next few years.  Her company that she works for is booming and gaining lots of interest!  I love being able to say that my sister designed that and show them her signature on the inside.  We have not always had the best relationship but in the past year we are finally getting along like I have always hoped we would.  I am so very proud of her and everything that she does!

I have finally made it to my last and final semester as a nursing student.  I have met a wonderful man, I couldn’t ask for a better guy.  He keeps me sane when I want to go crazy, calm when I am so very angry, and he rubs my feet without asking for a foot rub in return! (Mom says that’s a sign of a keeper).  Along with all of that I have made great strides toward volunteering with Sexual Trauma, I never thought it would be something that I was interested in helping with but I am good at it and I help people so I’ll keep doing it.

My friends have had a bumpy ride as well.  My best friend, Kayleigh had a wedding renewal with her husband.  She has been balancing newly wedded life, school and work throughout this year.  I know they’ve had a bumpy ride but I know they are on the right track and will make it through.  My friend, Caroline has graduated and passed the NCLEX!!!!  Along with struggling to find that perfect balance in her life, no matter what road she decides to take I will still be there to support her.  My Friend, Garren has been trying to find herself throughout the past year.  She moved back home and gave up on a failing relationship, it was the best and I know that she will survive and find herself.  I can think of so many more friends that have grown and changed throughout this year, I can’t wait to see how this next year turns out.

The scariest part of this reflection is the things yet to come; Graduation, NCLEX, job hunting and moving.  I will be taking a very big step in my life and while everyone around me says that I shouldn’t, I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do and that if I don’t at least try then I will always wonder what could’ve been.  I don’t want to be sitting here next year this time reflecting on the year gone by and wonder if it could’ve been different.  I have taken advantage of every opportunity that has come my way and I don’t intend to stop now!  Look out 2010, Here I come!!! Happy Holidays everyone! I hope that you take the time to reflect on the year gone by!!  Comments are welcome!!!!

The Bad Side to Romance Novels

I know that I haven’t posted anything recently but that is all because I have been trying to make it through this semester in school.  I am almost done 2 more exams and then I have one more semster before graduation!  Woo Hoo!!  Even with all that going on I have still found the time to read a few books.  I found this series written by an author that I have read before.  Her other books were great so I had no reason to bought that these wouldn’t be good too.  But WOW!  This book was not a romance novel it was a sex book.  In every chapter there was sex and once you to got to the end there was still more sex.  I know that I like romance novels but there still needs to be a story there.  Not just two people meet and then there is sex going on.  I skipped reading half the book because I was just trying to find the story in the book.  If I could I’d like to get my money back.  Anyone can write a steamy sex scene but it takes an author to write a romance novel.  There has to be a memorable meeting and a building attraction to one another, there should be a fight for affections.  That’s what makes a good romance.

I like mine to have a murder mystery vibe to them too.  Rachel Gibson wrote a great short series which was about 4 authors that were friends and each book goes into one of their lives.  The best part is that each book is written in the style of that particular author, a True Crime, Murder Mystery, Romance and Science Fiction.  These are great books! At least in my opinion.  That is the beauty of reading though, what I like others might not.

However if there is no story to follow then you might as well just call the book porn.  It’s books like that, that give Romance Novels a bad name.  That is what most people already think about Romance Novels, so books like that are just perpetuating the cycle.  Come on authors do you really think that is a good book?  Having read other stories that are soo much better than this book to me it just seems like laziness on the authors part. I need a book with more substance than just sex.  Books like this are the bad side to Romance Novels.

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Jumping Back Into a Book!!

Unlike sHappy Hourome people I love to re read books!!  That is why I like to buy books instead of get them at the library, because I know that I am probably going to re read it at some point.  Several of the books that I have are falling apart at the binding because I have read them so many times.

The thing about re reading a book is that you always find something new that you previously didn’t find because you were too busy trying to figure out the plot of the story.   The details are what really get me into a book and most of the time I miss them the first time because I am reading so quickly to find out what’s next.  And that’s the great thing about a good book, the details are always there for you to find them. You only have to look.  That’s why I love to jump back into a book!!

Published in: on 10/11/2009 at 01:53  Leave a Comment  

Scared Shitless

I haven’t shared a lot about me personally in my blog, part of the reason is because I don’t know my readers so I don’t want to just sit there and talk about myself, how boring would that be.  Well currently I made a realization in my life and I thought that I might share it.Sophomore Nursing Class 13

I am a senior in the Nursing Program at my college.  I graduated high school in 2003 and am just now about to graduate school in May 2010.  Add it all up and I have been in college for a total of 7 years.  When I tell people how long I have been in school the first question that they ask me is, “Was nursing your first career choice?” Yes, since going into college I have always wanted to be a nurse.  I went to a Community College for a year and a half because I was really scared about going away to college.  When I finally went away to college it seemed like my personally life kept stopping my college life.  I lost 2 grandparents and was in a very bad car accident in the first semester that I was away at college.  Because of this I didn’t pass the classes I needed to get into the program.  Things like this kept happening.  It has been a constant struggle to get what and where I need to be.  But through that struggle the goal as always remained the same.  I never gave up on my dream to be nurse.

Now that I am so close that I can almost taste it, and I am scared shitless.  Where am I going to go, what area should I work in, and will I pass the NCLEX (Registered Nursing Exam).  All of these questions are running through my mind this semester.  It seems that everyone in my class knows where they want to go.  I have an idea but I am currently not sure and I don’t think that I am ready to make that choice.  But that is not the scariest part for me.  Through all of my time in the Nursing Program I have had my nursing instructors: there to have my back, they had the answers if I didn’t and they were always there to double check stuff and make sure I didn’t kill a patient (not that I ever did or tried to, but still).  It scares me because I will have to be the one with the answers and I will be my double check and there is no one there to constantly have my back.

I know that I will make a great nurse someday and I am ready to graduate school.  But am I ready for the real world.  For a long time (7 years to be exact) I have had that comfy, cushy feeling that even if I mess up in school I still have another chance to make it right.  There are no more chances, I can’t mess it up, I have to graduate and be a big girl in the terrifying Real World!!  I Am Scared Shitless!!!

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A very sensitive subject…

SO I want to write about a very sensitive topic, but before I say anything I want to preface with the following.  Everyone is allowed their own opinion and views.  I am by no means trying to press my opinion on anyone else.  In fact I encourage everyone to figure out your own beliefs and be proud of what you believe.angelsanddemons

Religion is one of the most sensitive subjects there is.  I have studied religions in college and listened to people talk about their own beliefs.  For all of my experiences I have come to have strong beliefs in my religion.  However, I am always open to new interpretations and new ideas.  I think that is very important for everyone.  You should always want to learn and grow, there is never a limit to the amount of knowledge that one can obtain.  Religion is one of those same things that you can never have enough new knowledge on.

With the new Dan Brown book coming out, I started thinking about all the religious controversy that surrounded his last two Robert Langdon books.  In some ways I can see how Catholics may not enjoy the subject matter that he chose to write about (The Catholic Church), when I read his books they only strength the faith in my beliefs.  “Science and Religion support the same thing – pure energy is the father of creation.” – Dan Brown, Davinci codeAngels & Demons

My boyfriend, who is Catholic, refuses to read the books just on principle.  I tend not to talk about this with him because he is so strong in his beliefs.  But I did ask him, “Would it really hurt you to read what someone else writes about your religion, especially if you are so strong in your beliefs?”  He refused to answer and walked away, so I dropped the subject.  I believe that many people that are upset by his books feel the same way that my boyfriend does, but have they ever read the books? There are many things that I very much admire about Catholicism, but I do try to keep my mind and heart open to other ideas.  “Some of us pray to Jesus, some of us go to Mecca, some of us study subatomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves.” – Dan Brown, Angels & Demons

I preordered my copy of The Lost Symbol and it’s here!  I know I can’t open and read it yet because onlost symbolce I do I won’t be able to put it down and currently I have too much on my plate to stop and read. (And those of you who have read my previous stuff know I LOVE TO READ.)  I cannot wait to be taken into a new world and open my mind up to new and exciting ideas.  I hope that you will too!! “Science tells me God must exist. My mind tells me I will never understand God. And my heart tells me I am not meant to.” – Dan Brown, Angels & Demons

Remembering a Day

There are very few events that happen in your life that you can remember exactly where you were, what you were doing and what you were thinking.  I remember the day that I got my acceptance letter in to the Nursing program at my college.  I was minutes from leaving to go to Atlanta; the next morning, bright and early, I was leaving to go on a month long study abroad to Mexico.  I was really confused and afraid when I opened the letter because we weren’t suppose to hear about it for another month.  I tore open the letter and had to read it a few times, I was even shaking so hard that I had to hand it to my dad to read because I wanted to make sure thaEVENT_9-11_Firemans_Flag_lgt I had read it correctly.  When my dad said “Yes, that’s right you got into nursing,” I started jumping up and screaming and yelling for my mom.

This is one of the happier moments that I remember.  I remember where I was when each of my grandparents died, when I found out that one of my best friends from high school had been murdered and I remember the day that I found out my mom had a 20 lb tumor on her ovary.  Most of all I remember where I was the day our whole world changed

The date was September 11th, 2001.  I was junior in High School and it just seemed like every other ordinary day.  I had just sat down in my chemistWTC-Memorial-Lights-726357ry class, when my friend, Jennifer (this is the aforementioned friend that was murdered) came rushing in to ask if I had heard about the plane crashes.  I was clueless, I didn’t know what she was talking about.  She told me all the details that she could gather from the news program she had been watching in her previous class.  (See some teachers that day let us watch the news and others tought it would be too upsetting.)  When our teacher came in our class room all we could talk about was whether or not it was an accident.  We went on with class, and when we were dismissed I went on to my next class which was lunch and newspaper, so of course we watched the news.  It was in this class that we learned about the third plane that hit the Pentagon and the fouth one that went down in Pennsylvania.  It was then that everyone knew for a fact this was no accident.  This fact gave me chills, after that all I wanted to do was go home.  When I finally got home that day my dad was there, he had left the office to come home for the day in order to hear the news.  We talked about what was going on and what it meant for us.  I remember saying to him, “I don’t understand, what did we do to these people, and why would anyone want to kill all those innocent people.”  It has taken me years to finally come to terms with what happened that day.  I will never understand the urge to kill innocent people.  But from this I have pushed myself to learn about different cultures and religions so that I might better understand where people are coming from.  This is one day in many that has changed the world or atleast changed our world.  Don’t ever forget the people that lost there lives just so these men could make a statement.  And remember to live life to it’s fullest because it can change in an instance.

SO Sex Sells!!!

Ok so I occasionally take a look at the list of the Fastest Growing Blogs, and well today I noticed that one of them was titled “Free Download Video Prono.”  No wonder is was one of the fastest growing, probably most of the people click on it to get copy_of_FreePornthe free download and then it is something else.  I don’t know cause I didn’t click on it.  But that got me thinking.  I went through the statistics on my blog and the most read blog I had written was “What’s wrong with a little romance?” It got 21 hsex_sells_women_cits the first day that it was posted and it was the only one that I have comments on.  Because of the tags I have on it, the most commonly clicked tag is Playboy for that article.  It’s kind of sad that the only way to get people to read a blog is to somehow work sex into the title or blog or just tag it.  In fact maybe that’s what I should do just tag every blog with sex.  Then I might also be one of the fastest growing blogs.  Anyway just a few thoughts of mine.  Enjoy the rest of you day!!!

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